i wanna be:
1. romanticist - hoping that everyone would be happy
2. escapist - having too much desire to escape from the reality
3. optimist - taking life easily so i can live without any stress
4. admired person - i wish i wasnt hated by anyone
自分弱すぎワロタｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗもう彼氏じゃないんだからｗｗｗｗｗしかも自分の事かなり嫌ってるんだからもういい加減色々期待すんのやめろってｗｗｗｗｗｗｗ後輩があの人に興味あるのは前から知ってる事だし、珍しい事じゃないし、あの人が夜遊びするのも今に始まった事じゃないし、いい加減慣れようや。あの人無しで、一人で生きれるように頑張ろうや。
プロム誘ってくれないかなあなんて思ってる時点でアウトｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗｗもう自分期待しいで本当うっといわやめてくれ。何したら許してくれるんかなあ、あと一年で卒業したらそれで本当に”他人”になっちゃうんかあ。自分だってそら完璧じゃないから嫌われるのは分かるけど、やっぱり嫌われるのは辛いわなｗｗｗｗｗｗ i mean, i personally think its waste of time to hate someone. id rather spend my time loving someone than hating someone, even though someone offends me in the worst way they could think of. やっぱり他人だから理解出来んわな。でもやっぱりいっぺん付き合ってた人に何の感情も持つなっていうのはキツいｗｗｗしかもあの人移り変わり早いｗｗｗ傷つくわ流石にー。でももう期待するのはやめたいね。あと一年でお別れやんね。寂しいね。
what kind of fuckery is this, fucking hell. wtf do you want me to do? stop thinking that id always be there for you and thinking that you are the most miserable person in the world or sth. shut the fuck up and stop escaping from the reality, you fucking dickhead. i swear, if you tell me that you dont wanna turn yourself back at me one more time, imma fucking kill you cz the fact that you think ill always be there is just not right.
im not a fucking romanticist or a fucking optimist. i dont wanna get fucking involved in your own fuckery when im suffering my own fuckery. you depend on people too much, go think what you can do by yourself and stop fucking involving other ppl and stop acting like a fucking drama queen, you fucking cunt.
you never understood when i tried to give advice for you. and when i did, you just told me to stfu cz you are not in the right mood. if you are gonna keep fucking with me like that, imma slap you in your fucking face and imma tell you one thing, that you can never trust people that you shouldnt be addicted to someone cz they will betray you at one point. you dont wanna fucking lose anyone? then maybe you should fucking start to care about others cz right now, im feeling fucking stupid bcz of your attitude. you dont wanna turn your back at me? well, you are the one whos trying to make me hate you. you are not the only one suffering, there are more ppl suffering out there. your fucking fuckery is just a tiny thing. stop the fucking exaggeration.
i say i dont give a fuck about anything, but i actually do and sometimes, just sometimes i wish someone would actually give a fuck about me.
~ Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via in-finitus)
~ Ani Difranco (via in-finitus)
~ Haley James Scott (via blindsideddd)
its funny how you didnt like someone for so long, but suddenly fall for someone that asked you out and end up liking them so much. and when it comes to break-up, you act all cool and chill like you’re not heartbroken at all, but in the inside, you just miss them so much that you even feel like committing suicide just to get their attention. and you come to a realization that it would never work.
oh god, fuck it.
sometimes i think its way easier to be dead than to be alive. i mean of course but then, i start to question everyone including myself.
“why do you choose to live with such complications then?”
